My parents split when I was 12 or 13.
And then my mom passed on when I was 16.
The only thing I feIt that I really had, at that point, was music.
My wanting to keep everything under control, and, you know...
It's out of a fear of my abandonment issues.
I'm afraid to get close to people, 'cause I don't know how to do it.
l don't know how you're supposed to do it.
- Cool! - That last one was pretty good.
Yes.
That's the first amp I ever owned.
That, right there.
- I think we have it. - OK.
OK. Now we got to talk about it.
You started talking about
the idea of the guitar solo, as we have known it,
maybe being something that was a little outdated,
and maybe reintroducing some riff-a-rama things.
But can I say something that I think is bullshit?
This whole fucking solo outdates the whole thing.
That's so bullshit. You know?
lf you put a guitar so... if you don't put a guitar solo in one of these songs,
that dates it to this period.
And that's cemented to a trend that's happening in music right now.
l think that's stupid, and I think it's totally trendy.
That's not what I said. It's always been about, like, where could it go
that's kind of new and interesting,
instead of repeating something from the past.
I'm not interested in playing traditional guitar solos anymore.
- You know, that's just... For me it's... - And you told me that.
...it's just boring, you know?
To me, if you can add a color to the song that satisfies you
and works for the song, then that's what we should do with it.
But I don't want to get in the position
where it's, like, we put something down on the tape
to satisfy your ego, my ego, Lars' ego or James' ego.
l think it should serve what's going down.
Like, in other words, there shouldn't be, like, a rule of no solos.
There shouldn't be a rule of solos. It should be...
And I agree. I mean, it really is, to me, all about serving the song,
and, you know, I feel much better about that.
Because, you know, I just don't want to follow certain trends
that I see other bands following.
We don't necessarily have to stick to our traditional way,
but we also don't have to follow that trend.
I'm actually very, very comfortable with my role in the band, you know?
l've actually always been very, very comfortable with my role in the band.
I'm not a really egotistical person.
ln fact, I spend a large amount of my time trying to, like, downplay my ego,
and get it even smaller and smaller. That's part of my beliefs.
l try to be an example of being egoless to the other guys.
"Hi! This is Kirk from Metallica."
"And if you want money, you'll listen to us!"
And then some other guy's gonna give you some cash.
20 years' worth of integrity and, you know, credibility and all that.
The next five minutes is gonna change all that.
"Hey, man, keep it locked right here and..." What?
"We'll help you score $1,000."
"This is James from Metallica. Survey says, 'You need cash."'
"Your money shot to snatch a bunch of cash is coming soon."
"ln order to suck both nationwide radio chains off,
we are now standing here, having to do this fucking stupid thing."
"Up to 50 motherfucking grand, goddammit!"
"Win a bunch of money, and walk away."
This is stupid!
"Sharpen that booger-picking finger. and be the 50th..."
"Hey, it's Lars from Metallica. I'm about to stick 50 grand up your ass."
One dollar at a time.
l was telling Lars last night,
that was hard for me to see you guys squirm like you were.
- Yeah. - Because I wanted to say anything,
and it's not my place to say anything.
l can't imagine Bono or The Edge going on the radio saying...
what you guys are being asked to say.
- Dad, can I have one of those? - Go for it.
Shall we catch up on all this radio stuff?
- Uh-huh. - OK.
Now, they're the biggest chain in America.
You know, it's like 75, 80 stations or something.
And if you guys think it's crappy, as a radio thing,
those guys think it's good. l mean, that's their idea.
We didn't come up with that. So, strategically...
Why are we doing it, then? Just to make them happy?
Yes. That's exactly what they're doing.
And, they won't say, "Fuck you, you never do anything for us."
"We're gonna fuck you on the next record."
People would do that?
"Because you didn't give us something, we're going to fuck you"?
Yes, James. They would.
I'm not saying that they can always get away with it...
That's so funny.
- ...but it wouldn't stop them from trying. - I'm glad it's your world.
l understand the "wash your back, you wash mine" thing.
"Wash my... l'll wash your back so you don't stab mine"...
- Right. - ...is more like it.
OK. Why don't we get off the phone, then?
Well, you know, we should have this conversation some more next week.
- Later. - OK. See ya. Bye-bye.
That's insanity. "We're gonna hurt you 'cause we didn't get something."
"l wash your back so you don't stab mine."
Well, that's a good line for a song.
l guess I just want something to rhyme with "mine" right now.
"Wash your back so you won't..."
"Wash your back, so you won't stab mine."
- "Step on a land mine." - "Keep you in my back pocket."
"Blind leading the blind... l'll rip out your fucking spine."
OK.
Wash your back so you won't stab mine
Get in bed with your own kind
Wash your back so you won't stab mine
Get in bed with your own kind
- I wanted to really... - Are you pulling my mike?
- That was really good. - It was.
- Really good. - So then add the other part?
Land mine
No land mines
No land mines, rock lobster
Wash your back so you won't stab mine
Get in bed with your own kind
There's a witch at the foot of my bed.
- Did you hear what Lars said? - Uh-uh.
He says, "Yeah, Kirk stopped reading and I stopped moping."
- That's what you said. - That's not what I said.
- What did you say? - I said, "l stopped sulking."
Oh, "sulking."
Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Shit!
ln the 11 months since he's parted company with Metallica,
ex-bassist Jason Newsted has been apparently more musically active
than his former bandmates. While Metallica drummer Lars Ulrich
was pursuing Napster, and singer James Hetfield battled alcoholism,
Newsted hooked up in the studio with legendary metal band Voivod.
Our own lan Robinson got all the answers on Newsted's new ventures,
and the current state of his relationship with Metallica.
A good friend hinted that Jason would really like to join the band again.
Man, I popped his little bubble for a second, and I don't know, man.
l'll be quite honest. I think the heart and soul of Metallica from this point on,
and has been for a while since Cliff died, is the three of you guys.
l think you will never, ever, ever find a permanent bass player.
My opinion.
There was also tragedy in rock this week.
Metallica's bassist Cliff Burton was killed in a bus accident
while the band was on tour in Sweden. He was 24.
Metallica bassist Cliff Burton was buried on Tuesday,
in the San Francisco area. The remaining members of the band...
Jason Newsted. He replaced Cliff Burton,
who was killed in an auto accident in September. Jason told MTV...
It pisses me off that Cliff left us,
because we'd never have that initial four guys just going on and on.
You know, when I talk about it, it's like that happened for a reason.
And we're... we're dealing with that.
l got to capitalize on what's being said right here.
The Cliff message that I get from him to you guys is,
that treasure the three of you.
Treasure every moment that the three of you have.
And the four of you have. You know, treasure...
treasure it, because you never know.
And one of the sad things that happens when somebody dies
is that people have never taken the time along the way
to really embrace each other every day. You know?
It's a sin if, you know, if you let that go.
Phil has been like an angel for me.
He's been sent to help me.
And, you know, l've got my own thoughts about all that, you know?
A father figure, the dad that never was, and all of that.
That... it makes me comforted. It comforts me.
But also, we don't want to have our hand held through life.
We'd like to be able to stand proud ourselves and move on.
There'll be a time for that.
And we just have to discuss when that is.
You know, there is purpose behind the way I do it.
l think it's very effective.
l have to decide whether I'm going to push it...
or not.
It sometimes is a distraction.
So what part of our career are you going to manage today?
l thought l'd do the whole thing, since you guys can't do anything.
l mean, you know, if you guys could run something,
then it would be easy to step back. Because you can't, you know...
ls today the first day you're gonna play drums?
- I don't want to get into that. - OK.
l don't think I'm going to do the drums.
- I think it's time... - Maybe I should.
- Yeah. I think it's time. - AIthough, actually, I'm kind of...
Well, it's about the only thing you haven't done.
- I haven't sung. - Right.
We got to a point where we sat down and told Phil
that we wanted to scale Phil back to every other week.
And we were getting ready to implement that,
four weeks from when the decision was made,
and two weeks after the decision was made,
we had to sit Phil down and say that we were not ready to do that.
Because we got really...
l don't know. Scared, I guess.
There were some things going on at the time that really Phil helped with a lot.
Live from the news leader in northern California,
Newscenter 4. Night Beat.
The Metallica versus Napster battlefield moved to San Mateo today.
Metallica drummer Lars Ulrich delivered a list of screen names
of people who have downloaded the band's music online.
Metallica is suing Napster, a website that provides software
which allows people to download music on the lnternet without paying.
Metallica drummer Lars Ulrich testified before a senate committee
earlier this month that Napster has, quote,
"hijacked our music without asking."
The band said that over 350,000 people are downloading its music for free.
A group of former Metallica fans staged a protest at the courthouse.
l don't want anything to do with Metallica anymore.
I'm gonna be trashing their CDs. l took all my CDs,
and I'm gonna be destroying them.
Are you proud of what you achieved with the whole Napster thing?
Are you proud, in hindsight, of what you pulled off?
Being the most hated man in rock-'n'-roll?
Yeah, that was my goal. "l got an idea."
"I'm kind of bored this summer. Everything's going a little too well."
"Let's see. I want to turn myself into the most hated,
fucking asshole in rock-'n'-roll, yeah."
Like, good afternoon. My name is, you know, like, Lars Ulrich, from Metallica.
l worked for years to get where I am today.
Me and my buddy, like, James Hetfield here, have shed blood, sweat,
and motherfucking beer, to get where we are today.
Beer! Good!
Who do you think you are? I mean, just, you know, because you, like,
made us rich, you think you can get free stuff?
Songs that we spent upwards of, you know, like,
24 to 48 hours writing and recording?
Our team of lawyers and researchers have your names,
and you Napster users, we'll see you in jail getting gang-raped.
Money, good! Napster, bad!
Some minutes, I have all this strength, and I can stand there and just go,
"Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you!"
"I'm bulletproof, it doesn't matter. l got Hetfield and Hammett,
and we're a team, and fuck you." Do you know what I mean?
And then five minutes later, it means nothing,
and I just become really vulnerable.
We never sat there and thought about where Napster was gonna end up.
We never sat there and thought about what shots we were gonna take,
we just sat there and thought about, this was something we had to do.
So... Wait a sec!
That was awesome!
It's like I had to stay on the course that I was on, and stay to my convictions,
but it was eating away at me inside.
And then maybe it could go lyrically to "What difference did l/we actually make?"
It's a great question. Great.
And if that could... It's, like, if that question could get thrown out there,
but remain unanswered, l think that's really strong.
All the shots I take
What difference did I make?
All the shots I take
l spit back at you
- "All the shots I spit back at you." - That's awesome, dude. Fucking...
- Fuck me. - Right on.
And that "what difference did I make?" fit right in.
Really awesome. Right on.
These two kicks, are they the same as...?
- It's different. - OK.
Go to the master. What really gets my dick hard
- is starting on boom-boom. - We can do that.
You know, there. Then these are awesome.
Lars, what I want to know is, do the four of you
just go in there and just jam?
You're hearing excerpts of three-hour jams.
You're hearing... Look at it as a funnel.
You're hearing the very part of the bottom of the funnel.
- Right. - You can almost equate
- what we're doing now to arranging. - You're like Pollock. The painter.
He is. He's Pollock, the funnel-arranger guy.
It's gonna sound fucking amazing at the stadium with 100,000 people,
and fuckin' raising the evil horns up to the sky and saying,
"Metallica, baby."
Oh, can we fast-forward to that right now?
l think what l'd like to do is, l'd like to talk about
this touring thing that has come up.
We're very cognizant of the fact that, you know,
things have changed for you guys.
And they've changed for many, many reasons.
Why can't we figure out what works best for everybody in their personal lives,
plus what works best as a business?
What if you just do a stadium tour,
where you play Friday, Saturday, and Sunday,
and then you go home the rest of the week?
l just want to put out that, you know,
there might be a kind of an uncomfortable vibe here,
'cause people might not know how I'm feeling about touring.
And I don't really know, either, you know, until I get there.
And, you know, I wanna tour.
l don't want to fall off the wagon, you know?
l don't want to go out there. l don't know what it's like.
Doing things for the first time again, as I think l've said before,
it's a little scary.
l don't know about you, but it's, like, summertime,
and to me, it's fuckin' beer-drinkin' weather, yeah?
Well, I'm gonna take time right now and fuckin' have myself one,
and I just wanna say cheers to all you guys,
and fuckin' thanks for comin' down and gettin' nutty with us, man. Cheers.
l blew my voice out on the Black Album
doing "So What", the cover song.
And we had a bunch of Metallica songs to do after that.
And I went to this coach. l didn't want to go, I was scared.
l thought he was gonna make me sing operatic.
But I went there, and we just did warm-up stuff like this.
And this is the tape. And l've had this same tape for... since then.
- Was there a turning point? - Yeah, I think when we had accumulated
what we thought to be, you know, a great kind of...
Uh, I don't know.
...cross section of material, we took stock, so to speak.
The only songs that are gonna make it to the album
are the songs that all four of us vote on.
And out of 30-plus songs, only four songs got all four votes.
Sweet Amber
How sweet are you?
How sweet does it get?
How sweet are you?
How sweet does it get?
- Yes. - Yeah, right.
Wow. I mean, there's some explosive playing. The shit just takes off.
It's like you guys have spent all this time to come back to find yourselves.
- That's what it sounds like to me. - 17 to go.
Yeah, how are you doin'? You wanna hear more?
- Wanna hear some more? - I'm just getting started. Yeah.
OK.
Squeeze all within my hands
Choke within my hands
I'm madly in anger with you
I'm madly in anger with you, I'm madly in anger with you
All this hurt I'm in
Times, times, at times like this
You got what you're comin' to
Destruct without, within, withal
l crush your spine, so that gets broken too
Oh, do it
Temptation, fill no hole
No! No, no!
Temptation
You know, the first four songs you've played me
all pretty much knocked me out, OK?
But if you've got it going, you want it to hammer all the way through.
You want people to be able to really listen and say,
"Jesus Christ, there's no letting up from these guys."
"There's no fuckin' let-up." Fuck ballads. You know?
There definitely is some Presidio stuff that...
l feIt maybe... You got to analyze it.
Maybe you're watering it down in some way.
That's all.
- It's your call. - Yeah.
"Temptation." l remember writing that thing.
It came out. It flowed totally instantly.
"Temptation" kind of sums up
all the lyrics that are in this new...
kind of project. So...
And that's cool, because that was done long before recovery and all that, so...
l mean, I can tell that you're singing your heart out.
You're definitely wearing your heart on your sleeve on that song.
To me, it's more like a jam. ls there a song in there?
Potentially, you know,
there's almost nothing there that can't be turned into something
better than it is, or something that could probably get pretty fuckin' close
to being something on a Metallica record.
You know, but then it just goes away from what the purpose -
or at least what I see the purpose being today,
which is show up with what you... You know, what are your A-pluses?
You know?
Well, when I hear Lars talk about we can whip anything into decent shape, I agree.
And we did that on Load and Reload.
And this is us trying to choose before we take it to those extremes, you know?
Exactly.
- That makes sense. - Yeah.
That was a pretty major thing that l think Lars and I clicked on together.
That, wow, l'd heard him, and he heard me.
It's, like, "Oh, OK."
It's like it takes the cutting edge off of it,
or the personal attack off of it, you know?
Things are a lot less dramatic than they used to be
within the chemistry of the four of us.
Less head games, abuse of power and soap-opera bullshit.
But can we just do one thing?
For lack of a better word, when it comes in with the drums,
l just want you to scream "Fuck" as hard as you can fuckin' scream.
Can you stand up?
Fuck!
OK. It should be slower.
It should be more like...
l want four of them. Do it again.
Lars is selling paintings because
he's ready to move on to the next ten years,
or next decade, or next phase of his life.
And a lot of what these paintings, and a lot of what this house represents,
is the last 10 years versus a husband and father of two.
He's getting rid of some pretty major and important pieces,
and the majority of his collection.
He's wiping the slate clean.
Midnight, New York City.
One last look at the paintings. Oh, well.
- This is a celebration. - This is a celebration.
This should be your statement of how far you've come...
- It's a celebration. - ...with Phil Towle.
This is a celebration of some paintings that visited us for a while,
and now we want to share them with other people. OK?
- Right, yeah. That's it. - It's a choice.
OK, cool.
l never looked at it as an investment, but I always looked it as
versus some of the other guys who may be, like, taking a big pile of money
and parking it in the bank. I would always, like, take a big pile of money
and park it on my wall.
Wow.
l can just feel some of the adulation
that other people have thrown at these paintings, and that makes me proud.
l've never been this close to it.
These are great paintings, whether they sell for a dollar or for $100 million.
The only thing that matters is what pleasure
and what feeling you get out of that moment you have with that painting.
And it's never been about dollars and cents,
it's always been about something greater than that.
But, fuck, they do look awesome. l mean, fuck!
- It's been a good time. - And it will be a good time.
To the future.
l feel better about this than I thought I would, actually.
It's weird, I don't know why. Shit!
$300,000 on the telephone.
It's two of you in the room, selling right, fair warning at $300,000.
Jean-Paul? $300,000.
21 is the...
..to Modena on the reverse,
the Jean-Michel Basquiat showing on the screen there on my right.
- All right, here we go. - Be strong, my friend.
- One million nine hundred thousand... - One-nine... two million!
One million one hundred thousand... three hundred thousand...
Can we get more cocktails?
Three million two hundred thousand...
Four-five.
- 720. - Three million dollars.
- One-four. - For you, sir, $260,000.
$680,000.
And selling at $5 million. Brett, yours at $5 million.
All right!
It went well. I got myself drunk to numb the pain.
But it went well. I'm happy.
Like, let's talk about the zone for a minute.
Because there is a way to help a person or persons get in a zone.
l mean, you could consider seriously doing some meditative, or...
Apply the meditative principles to music, all right?
l don't want this to sound too way-out, but if you do that,
the four of you are out there, and you do it anyway, unconsciously.
You do a musical meditation by starting to jam with each other.
l just think, no matter how you look at it,
l've been making records a very long time, and it really comes down to
how much work you put in and how much... You know, it's just tough.
Sometimes it's just tough work.
And I like to stretch the frontiers of what people accept, OK?
And I understand about that, and l... I don't want for my mind to...
"The Zone. Admission is believing."
l guess I'm not gonna be playing today, then, huh?
Well, I'm gonna go out and make phone calls.
So everybody's...
You know, we've had a fabulous few weeks with a lot of great productivity,
a lot of really good stuff goin' on.
The more we feel good about ourselves and each other,
and the higher we ascend, the more challenging it will be
- to our psyches. - You know, I understand it,
l embrace it and all that stuff. But sometimes it just bugs me.
l think the, uh... that thing was kind of buggin' me yesterday.
All of them around the studio, it was just kind of, like,
that way of thinking just doesn't work for me all the time.
And I was a little pissed off at it, because right now in my life
it's not really working for me.
- I'm glad to know that's what you think. - I agree with that. Wholeheartedly.
And if you feel that way and wish to share that more directly,
- l'd appreciate that, too. - Rather than tearing the signs down?
Yeah.
We pay him $40,000 a month to be pretty much available at our beck and call.
So when this record's done, do we want to collectively end the $40,000-a-month...
full-on thing?
I'm afraid he's under the impression that he's, like, in the band, you know?
And I see him comin' on the road, maybe, for a week.
But after that, I don't see him...
holding our hand any further than that.
So is that somethin' we want to present to him, then?
- Yeah. I think, um... - OK.
l think it's something... it's something we need to do for our own well-being.
Yeah, 'cause I'm feelin' uncomfortable.
Hello? Hello?
- Hello? - Are they on the phone?
Yeah, they're on the phone and they need you now.
Oh, OK.
- James Hetfield is in the room. - Hey, there.
- Hey, James, how you doin'? - Pretty good.
I'm goin' to let Marc do the talkin' here, because Marc was the one
who's been talking to MTV.
OK, so, this afternoon the official offer came in for lCON.
- Assuming you want to do it. - Let's do it.
- Cool, man. Yeah, I'm jazzed about it. - Right.
The only thing that you guys are required to do
is show up for rehearsal and then show up for the show on the 3rd,
and at the end of the show you guys take the stage and perform a little bit.
- So what's Jason's role in all this? - What? Who?
OK, fine, I mean... But I don't think Jason has any role.
He lost his icon status when he left Metallica.
- Nice one, Cliff. - Thank you.
l think MTV would like the fact that this would most likely be
the introductory performance of Metallica with a new bass player,
whether it's the new member or whoever.
- When is this supposed to be? May what? - May 3rd. Saturday, May 3rd.
That means you'd have to hire someone by the 2nd.
- OK. - I think it can happen.
You'd be required to be in Los Angeles for all of two days...
Because we didn't get a new bass player, l think a lot of people thought
maybe that we were having trouble finding one.
We never started looking for a new bass player until two months ago.
We worked on ourselves, identified what part can we work on,
so when someone else steps in, it's clean.
They're not stepping in our shit, you know?
All right, thinkin' about bass players, finally?
So, we're gonna need a fourth member.
You know, we know you're a great bass player.
It's the vibe, you know, we need to make sure...
Jason kind of triggered this whole thing a couple of years ago.
And... I can't believe it's been two years, you know?
And then we've gone through some...
We realized that we kind of wanted somebody who was, like, our age.
Somebody who had been around the block a couple of times.
- Right, right. - We've grown a lot, man.
The three guys in this band.
And last time when we did this, 14, 15 years ago...
16 years ago, I guess it was.
We literally sat down and started auditioning bass players,
you know, the day after the funeral for Cliff.
So now it's 16 years later, different circumstances.
When Jason left, he took his basses with him.
Do you want a four or five?
Uh, whatever. What five-strings do you have?
This one's five-string.
Keep searching
Keep on searching
This search goes on, this search goes on
The band... These guys collectively probably own, like,
five to 600 guitars, so they're not all here.
Wow.
On and on, frantic tick-tick-tick
Tick-tick-tick-tock, frantic
Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tock, frantic
Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tock!
You went into another voice there, dude.
Which one of me are you talking to?
Think that we should just spend the next two-and-a-half hours with this guy.
Don't you?
l had a vision of us jamming with him the last hour.
l guess I just feel this is just kind of, like, weird to keep, like, just...
doin' our own thing - it just feels not welcoming.
This morning I heard him say he was pretty comfortable.
It's not about what he says.
- It's about what I feel. - All right?
- Are we cool, James? - Yeah!
l guess the only other thing l'd like to say is, you know,
when we leave this up to just how we're feeling,
a lot of it depends on how you're feeling.
You know, when you say those things.
Not that I want to break up what you guys are discussing,
if you wanna go deeper, you know?
But I think what might be really good is to
treat this with respect, go out and do this.
- Yeah! - Metallica stuff?
l could... I could try "Battery."
"Battery"? You can play that fast with your fingers?
Yeah!
Battery
That's a fuckin' pretty mighty bass sound you got goin' there.
l don't know. It's the Mesa and the Hiwatt.
ls there anything else you know as well as that?
Cliff... It was just, like, you saw Cliff, and me and James went,
"He's in our band, there's no question."
He hit it out of the park.
And that's where it sorts of gets interesting.
Because if Cliff Burton showed up today, maybe he wouldn't be the guy, either.
l mean, the three guys that I like all have unique features
that I would love to Frankenstein, you know?
Yeah! Definitely.
- Some kind of monster... - That would be great.
l don't think you should settle. l think you should get the right guy.
lf you don't hit it out of the park with one of these guys,
then you're gonna end up four years down the road
in the same situation you did with Jason.
A four-count and then ba-da-bup-bup,
- and into the solo right away. - Just follow.
He was the first guy of any of them that didn't look like he was struggling with it.
That's what I told Bob.
But do you know what I mean about, like...?
You know, with some of the other guys it was
sort of 10 percent over their capabilities or something like that.
And you don't feel that with this guy at all.
It's, like, the last three songs, "Sanitarium," "Nothing Else Matters,"
and what was...? There was some, uh...
- "Sad But True." - They were flawless.
l looked over at him during "Whiplash,"
and he was just right in the pocket and in there.
And then afterwards, when he played it alone with his finger...
It hadn't been played that way since Cliff.
It's just, like... huh?
- Yeah. - Yeah, his finger's a pick, you know?
Yeah. Yeah, it's three picks.
Are you gonna sack Bob now?
Well, the second time you came back, l mean, that was, for me,
when I noticed that you make us play better, man.
- You make the band sound... - Hell, yeah.
...so much better..
- Wow! - ...and so solid.
- How do you feel about that, man? - Well, I feel awesome, man.
- You're the chosen one. - You looked coolest.
And we want you to be a real member of this band,
- not just a hired hand. - Right. Right, absolutely.
- And, um... - Oh, wow!
...we'd like to offer you, basically to give...
to show you how serious we are about this, offer you a million dollars,
to join our band right now.
Right, OK.
And as a kind of a good-faith thing about how serious we are...
It's an advance. It's an advance on some percentage
- you're gonna be making with the band. - Right.
Here's money up front
to get you kicked in and inspired, and...
"This is a reality, this is my future. This is what life can hold for me...
with my new family."
l can't really talk right now.
lnvisible kid, never see what he did
Got stuck where he hid falling through the grid
lnvisible kid got a place of his own
Where he'll never be known
lnward he's grown
lnvisible kid, never see what he did
Got stuck where he hid fallin' through the grid
lnvisible kid got a place of his own
Where he'll never be known
lnward he's grown
There's things that I miss, and I'm kinda sad that it couldn't work out,
you know, like that. But there's way, way, way,
way more times and way more days and even hours that go by and I'm reminded,
"Dude... All right! You did the right thing."
"You know, you did the right thing for yourself."
l don't know if it's the right time to say this,
but, I don't know, l've been thinkin' about our talk.
About, you know, you and us and our future and all of that stuff.
You know, when I heard that you guys were movin' here and all of that,
that brought up a lot of fear around, "Wow, what is Phil's perception
of, you know, his longevity with Metallica?"
- You know? That scared me a little bit. - Well, I appreciate that.
lf it scared you, and that's part of the issue going forward,
then let me say, we haven't decided we're moving here.
l've tried to make it clear that, um, we're selling...
l think... We've told people we're selling our house in Kansas City,
but that doesn't mean we're moving here, OK?
And we won't likely move to San Francisco if...
if there's not a future out there with Metallica, 'cause it...
You know, that's my...
l want to make sure that the bass player's intact,
l want to be sure that the tour's on, and I also, as I said,
have performance-coach visions for each of you and for the band.
And l... to me, the work isn't over.
Um, l'd like us to honor what we had, and if you want to be away from...
you know, on your own or something for the couple of months
that you came back in June, that's...
l don't know, I guess I have a problem sometimes, Phil,
with the "Let's see how it works out, let's see how it happens,"
and then, "No, let's honor what happened, you know, six months ago."
You know? That's kind of strange to me, you know?
Because I think that you use those things
when they're convenient at times, you know?
Personal stuff or business things,
and, I don't know. l don't know.
The boundaries are... I don't know, becoming more clear to me.
Um... There's that element of...
trust that just kind of floats with you with me.
And I'm really sorry about that. That... that... you know.
l've been swimming uphill on that one for a long time with you,
and l'd like for us to be able to resolve it. But maybe we can't.
l've got to tell you that l... You know, if the client, either James or us, says...
You know, then I really think that needs to be respected without...
You know, just, you know, the old turn-the-knife thing in there?
You know, it just... you know, if the client says,
you know, "Time out for a while," time out.
Yeah. I agree, aIthough our process, what we usually do...
Then it should be put on the table, but left on the table,
and we should be able to walk away without what you're saying right now,
which is now there are trust issues and stuff.
l don't know how to separate out...
ln its simplest form, I think it's a conflict of interest that you tell him
that he needs you around more.
- lf he... - No, no, no, no, no...
- ...wants to take a break. - I'm not saying that.
- I'm saying... - I see that as a conflict of interest.
Look, I am saying you guys have made a decision.
It's OK for me to say I'm not happy with that decision.
The premise is you guys don't need me. And I'm good with that.
Anyway, you go. It's...
Anyway, let's jam.
Great, l'll see you guys. I'm takin' off, l'll see you next week.
Have a good one. Thanks, man.
Who's in charge of my head today?
Dancing devils in angel's way
It's my time now, it's my time now
It's my time, yeah, it's my time
Look out, motherfuckers, here I come
I'm gonna make my head my home
The sons-of-bitches tried to take my head, tried to make me someone else instead
You've been in the band for five minutes, and already you're an icon?
It's such an honor, and, you know, I'm stoked, so...
"Your voting interest will equal your percentage interest
in a new Metallica account, while each of our voting interests
will be one-third of the difference between 100% and your percentage."
This is about as lawyer as you get, but really...
- It's sort of laying out... - Yeah, it lays out the deal.
For instance, in the first period, you have five percent, OK?
So when we do a vote, you get 32 votes,
you get 32 votes, you get 32 votes, you get five votes, in any vote, OK?
- But this doesn't mean anything. - I think it's crap. I mean, l...
l think in the spirit of what we're trying to do, we've got to do 25,
and then Q Prime's the tie-breaker, that's...
That works. That's fine. Cool.
Now, here this also says "You will not be required to fund any losses
in the new Metallica account, but we will be entitled to recover
any losses out of future profits."
For instance, buying the documentary is not your problem.
lf the documentary loses money
and the company never makes any more money again,
it's these three guys' problem.
"What did you do with your money?" "l went and bought a new car,
l bought my mom a house," and we went and bought a documentary.
You know, it was just, you gotta keep in the spirit of this thing.
By the end of this week, we're gonna have an album title.
ln three days, we're not gonna have to agonize about this anymore.
Well, the thing that stood out to me was "St. Anger"...
It's strong. I mean, there's... lconic strong, you know?
- Yeah, I agree. - I like that title quite a bit.
It's so easy just to say, "June 17th is St. Anger's Day."
- Yeah, I know. It's true, that's cool. - No, I mean it's a...
l think "Frantic" is a better album title.
l think that's... it's more about the record.
- But "St. Anger"'s a good... - It's an original statement.
St. Anger. St. Anger.
Well, this is an angry record, but you read the lyrics,
- it's angry in a heaIthy way. - Right.
- This is also a frantic record... - Getting stuff out.
"Frantic" is more like they're tryin' things that they don't...
they're not exactly sure of. They don't know what they're doing.
They're trying to climb back up the mountain again...
- Right. - They're not sure of themselves.
- We don't have to take it... - That's fair. I mean, hello.
That's a fair thing. l mean, if you think that "Frantic"
has a negative connotation to it, l never thought of it like that.
lf it's "St. Anger," they're gonna form an image of,
"These guys are angry, I know it. They're angry about Napster,
they're angry about the new stuff that's coming in,
they're angry about their lives. I'm angry, too. I get it."
l think you guys know the idea about trying to shoot a video in San Quentin.
So let me get this straight. You're gonna go to a maximum security prison,
and Metallica's gonna play "St. Anger" really loud.
Yeah!
St. Anger round my neck
He never gets respect
St. Anger round my neck
l've been asked to come out here and talk a little bit about
what this song means to us.
Anger's an emotion that l've struggled with for pretty much all my life.
- St. Anger round my neck - It's rushing out, it's rushing out
He never gets respect
There's a lot of misspent anger that has come out sideways for a lot of people.
lncluding yourselves.
And if I hadn't have had music in my life, it's quite possible I could be in here,
or not even in here, be dead.
And, uh, l'd much rather be alive.
Madly in anger with you, I'm madly in anger with you
I'm pretty nervous up here, l don't really know what to say.
I'm just tryin' to share some of what's goin' on for me.
I'm not here to sell nothin', that's for damn sure.
Everyone is born good.
Everyone's got the same size soul, and we're here to connect with that.
So we're very proud to be in your house and play some music for you. Thanks.
More than any other record... I don't know if you guys feel that, but for me,
this is like a product of what we're just doing hanging out.
- You know what I mean? It's like... - It's almost like a diary.
Yeah, a diary. It's, like, here's our memories on CD, you know?
Like, we've proven that you can make aggressive music
- without negative energy. - Yeah.
OK? And I don't think anybody ever thought that that would be possible.
Do you know what I mean?
You can make something that's aggressive and fucked up,
with positive energy between the people creating it.
Yeah.
It hit me, you know? This project's coming to an end,
and, I don't know, l think I'm kind of bummed about that.
I'm just kind of liking the schedule that happens,
or the safeness in that.
Coming here, being able to talk. Creating, you know? And...
And, uh... I don't know.
l've been kind of coming down from this for about the past month.
l mean, getting up at five in the morning and just pacing my apartment.
Just not really knowing what the hell I'm doing, either. So I'm with you.
Like, I don't want to let you go home. l mean, man, I don't know.
l really appreciate that. That's really nice of you to say.
l don't know if I could feel myself kind of protecting myself
with some depression or some thing, wanting to just kind of isolate.
And I don't want to do that. l want to feel the sadness of...
l mean, I didn't feel depressed, I feIt sad.
And that's when I knew it was something different than just me...
My old stuff, you know? l mean, there is some of that, but...
Sadness and depression - I guess l don't really know the difference.
And, Phil, all the stuff that you've brought here to...
Like, you've set out all the tools. You know?
And you allowed us to build what we've buiIt, you know?
With guidance.
l really appreciate your bringing what it means, forward.
And there is a difference between sadness and depression, clearly.
This is the hugest chapter in my life.
lf I could have my wasted days back
Would I use them to get back on track?
Stand back, stand back. Keep away from the car.
- I love you. - I love you, too.
lf I could have my wasted days back
Would I use them to get back on track?
You live it or lie it, you live it or lie it
My lifestyle determines my deathstyle
Determines my deathstyle
Keep searching
Keep on searching
This search goes on, on and on
Keep searching, keep on searching
This search goes on, on and on
Frantic
Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tock, frantic
Tick-tick-tick-tick-tick-tock!
Thank you so much for supporting Metallica
through all the rough times and all the great times.
Metallica loves you!
Yeah!
Fuckin' A!
Metallica! Metallica! Metallica!
These are the eyes that can't see me
These are the hands that drop your trust
These are the boots that kick you around
This is the tongue that speaks on the inside
These are the ears that ring with hate
This is the face that'll never change
This is the fist that grinds you down
This is the voice of silence no more
These are the legs that in circles run
This is the beating you'll never know
These are the lips that taste no freedom
This is the feel that's not so safe
This is the face you'll never change
This is the god that ain't so pure
This is the god that is not pure
This is the voice of silence no more
Some kind of monster
This monster lives
This is the face that stones you cold
This is the moment that needs to breathe
These are the claws that scratch these wounds
This is the pain that never leaves
This is the tongue that whips you down
This is the burden of every man
These are the screams that pierce your skin
This is the voice of silence no more
This is the test of flesh and soul
This is the trap that smells so good
This is the flood that drains these eyes
These are the looks that chill to the bone
These are the fears that swing overhead
These are the weights that hold you down
This is the end that will never end
This is the voice of silence no more
Some kind of monster
This monster lives
Are we the people?
Some kind of monster
This monster lives